So, I'm back on WW for the 536th time...I know, I know, you've heard it before...THIS time is different, THIS time I feel really good about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it, THIS time I will finally get the weight off and keep it off forever. I've said that so many times that it runs like a mantra through my head on a loop...but, I'm not going to say or write that this time. I'm not going to set myself up for failure yet again.
I haven't blogged about being back on WW for a couple of reasons. One is that no one reads this blog anyway and two is that I haven't wanted to set myself up for failure yet again. I wish I could push a button and erase all previous posts on this blog because they haunt me like a failed love affair or a bully on a playground. But, it is my life, it's my history, it's me....and that's okay. It has to be because it's my story.
So, I started back to WW approx 5 weeks ago. I've lost 15lbs so far and I feel really good about it, cautiously optimistic I'd call it. I don't feel like quitting today and I haven't felt like quitting for 5 weeks now - that's a first for me, for a long time at least.
I gave myself some time to get the food thing figured out again...I say again, because I know what I should and shouldn't do regarding eating, I've been on diets on and off since I was 10 for heaven's sake. So, this week, I'm adding walking to the picture. I've read some stuff online and I'm trying to work out a walking routine that works for me without setting myself up for failure. Yesterday, I took the dog for a walk, I needed to go to the library and so I walked instead of driving. It took me 25 minutes and Zoey loved it!
One of the things I appreciate about going to WW meetings is gleaning from other people's experiences. Sometimes, it frustrates me because most people, including my meeting leader, have lost exactly 27 lbs 30 years ago and kept it off and I'm not dissing their achievements, but when you are staring at 100 lbs or 120 lbs to lose it looks very different. So, I was talking about exercise and the struggle I was having and sharing just that it's hard, especially when you have a lot to lose. So my leader introduced me to a woman who has lost 110 lbs, kept it off and now runs marathons. Which is amazing! I don't think I have any need to ever run a marathon, but a 5K would be fun. So, I hit the pavement yesterday and I plan to walk to the bank today and we'll see where it goes from there. But, I'm back and I'm working hard!